I have grocery store ADD

So I avoid going to walmart at all cost. Not because its ghetto, or anything of that nature. Simply because when I do, I always end up spending way more money than I intended. So I make a trip to lovely walmart, to buy 3 things. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2, Brighter Light Bulbs for my ceiling fan in my living room, and Dr Peppers. So I walk in the doors, grab a cart and off I go. First corner I round I see a whole bunch of boxes stacked in the isle. And one is cotton balls. Ooo, I forgot Im totally out of those, turn around go back to the make up station to grab cotton balls. Then I proceed on, heading for the light bulbs...but I pass so much getting there! First I see an end cap with razors on it, ooo my razor is getting kind of dull, I need new blades. And I turn down the razor isle. Oooo there are so many pretty razors, maybe I will just get a new one! Moving on! I find the light bulbs, and then continue on down the isle and find fire starter logs. I have some firewood now, and they don't catch fire that easy, so I definitely need a box of those. Now onto the back of the store for the movie...easily found, now to the other side of the store for milk. But first to stop at the air fresheners. I am pretty sure mine were running low. 2 air freshener refills, easily done. But then I see they have air freshener that is a night light. And I remember that Val wanted me to get her a night light for when the next time she comes to visit. So I turn around and go look through the baby section, but they don't have them, so back to the air fresheners, I will just get that.
This is the kind of crap I do when I go to walmart. That was only about half my shopping experience. It continued on though the store. And by the time I was done, I had spend $80. I am so ADD when I go to the store, I shouldn't be allowed to go. I always find things I need. Its not like im really buying junk per say, I just keep finding things. Walmart is EVIL!!!

Music makes me lose control

Music makes me happy! There is so much that can be expressed through song. I think that there are so many songs that express how I feel, even better than I can. As in the post secret I wrote about, there was one that says "Where words fail, music speaks. Songs can make me laugh, they can make me smile, they can even at many times make me cry. To love me is to love music, because I love music. I love listening to many different kinds of music, they all inspire me and move me in some way or another. Songs make you want to sing, they make you want to dance, or do anything that makes you happy. There is this song called Just Dance. And I loved it! She says "Just Dance. Its going to be ok." Those words just hit me, and its so true. Dance, it really is going to be ok! The other song that really has hit me hard lately is Leona Lewis's "Better in Time." She says that she is going to smile because she deserves it. HOW TRUE THAT IS? I need to smile, and I do deserve it!



Song lyrics as I have said before always speak to me. There is not a situation in life where I can't find a song that "works" for that situation. I have always loved the song Affirmation by Savage Garden, and thought the words to be true, even though I hadn't experienced them before. But I know know more than ever that the line they say is true, "you can't appreciate real love til you've been burned."

"I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye"

Taking Chances

There are so many opportunities that come up in life, that you are not sure what path you should take. While one path may seem more appealing, its the road less traveled and its often a path of uncertainty. But living life always wondering "what if" is not always the best choice. Sure, sometimes you take a chance and it doesn't pan out the way that you had hoped. But you learned something didn't you? You don't have to wonder "what if" cause you know. You took a risk, you tried something. Taking chances is scary. Especially if there is a chance you could get hurt if things don't work out. But hopefully no matter what you will learn from the experience. Teaching moments are a great thing. They help you grow, and become the wonderful person you know you can be. If there is no risk, then there really is no gain. If you don't make yourself vulnerable, you will never get hurt, but you will also never have anything to gain. So put yourself out there. Take a chance and open yourself up to pain. With big risks come big rewards!!

Taking Chances: Celine Dion

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don’t know much about your life
And I don’t know much about your world.

Post Secrets

Sometimes I just love to read through these. Have you ever read peoples post secrets? They can be quite good, or weird, lol but an interesting read.

Define the Relationship

The hard thing about dating is reading signs. Its hard to know what they are thinking, and so sometimes its very common to have a DTR. (Define the relationship) I was talking with a friend of mine yesterday. He was telling me about this girl that he has gone out with for the past 2 weeks, pretty much daily, and he was wanting things to be exclusive. He didn't want to scare her by asking yet though, so he wasn't sure what to do.

He asked my opinion on what he should do. And it was really advice I should always live by myself. I told him to have patience. Relax. Enjoy himself. And above all be his fun self and she will come around. What is it with people after 2 weeks already wanting to decide what things are? I am not saying im not guilty of it, but seriously! Maybe after a month I could say yeah you begin to wonder, but then again he does see her almost daily. I know when you find someone you think you like, you want to know that they feel the same way about things. But then there are those who want to DTR like every week. Its like where do you draw the line? Where is the line between wanting to know, and either annoying or scaring the other person away?

I feel bad for my friend, know he wants to be in a relationship. Everyone wants to be loved by someone. But there are so many signs, and they are hard to read. What to do? You don't want to overstep your boundaries.

The little things

While many see the big picture, I tend to look see past that to see the little things. Its not always intentional. But that is me none the less. I tend to notice things that may be unique, that may set you apart from someone else. I commented to my friend Molly one time, how she had this long indented crease down the middle of her tongue. I tend to notice an outfit that you may wear often, I know its your favorite. I notice what drink you like, and even if you use a straw or not. It may not seem like a big deal to others, but I notice the little things. To me, that is what life is all about. While big things may be great every now and then, its the little things that matter!

• It's about getting somewhere and finding the perfect parking space right up front
• Its about that look, in someones eyes as they hold you close, scanning you for any sign that it might be ok to kiss you for the first time.
• Its about wagging tails and puppy dog kisses
• That certain smell that brings you so many happy memories every time you smell it.
• Laughing so hard you cry
• Making a child smile
• Eating your favorite food

The list is lengthy, and I won't waste time listing everything, but life really is about the little things. I notice them, as I notice you!

"The little things, you do to me are
taking me over, i wanna show ya
everything inside of me
like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating
my feet are stuck here, against the pavement
i wanna break free, i wanna make it
closer to your eyes, get your attention
before you pass me by"

Please Listen

It is an age old problem that you hear complained about everywhere, that men don't understand women. Its not a new subject, but what I find funny about the whole ordeal is that in all reality women don't truly understand themselves and there in lies the problem. Its difficult for someone else to grasp the concept of what women want, if in fact, that they don't know themselves. Its very typical for a woman to say one thing, but truly want something else. Its also very typical for a woman to not know what they want, so now matter what happens, its never "what they want." Women also constantly complain that men never listen. I have definitely found my share of men who tend to not listen, but I find that for the most part, these particular men have been around women in their lives who never SHUT UP. I am sure it gets old when listening is all you do, cause she never even takes a breath. Its just "yack yack yack yack, blah blah blah blah" and you really just don't give a crap. Then when there are men who truly do care about what you have to say, and do actually try and listen, then they get yelled at for trying to solve the problems. Men are inherently problem solvers. Us as women cannot come to them with a problem without them coming back at us with every kind of solution that they can come up with. And we get mad, we feel insulted...why is he telling me what to do??? I didn't ask him to tell me what to do, I just wanted him to listen. But guys don't get that this is what we want, and girls don't get that guys need to "fix things." Girls just want a sounding board, just someone to listen as they throw out ideas, complain about work, friends, life, etc. They don't want it fixed. Maybe us girls should follow in my friend monica's footsteps and when she doesn't want someone to solve her problem or give fake sympathy, she tells you upfront. That is what blogs do for me, they are my way of venting, or sounding off, or just getting something out there that is on my mind, and then I can somewhat release some of those emotions that plague me a times. For me, blogging can be an out for me. I was reading some of my old blogs, ones that I had written 2 years ago, and some of them are very angry, and very emotional. For a long time that is what blogging was for me, it was my release. But when I don't blog, I will occasionally talk to others, and its ok if you don't know the right thing to say, its ok if you don't have the answers, its not what I want. If I want answers, I will come seeking advice, you will know that is what I am looking for. Sometimes you just need a friend, a friendly face to listen, cause sometimes that is all you need. Thats one of the great things men can be for women, they are our rock, our strength, our comfort. And that is why we turn to them to tell our problems to, so they can listen and tell us no matter what everything is going to be ok. And then women have their girlfriends.



Girlfriends are vital for all women. Female friendships are precious commodities for women. Whether their girlfriends are married or single, mothers or childless, they are the people that we find our precious moments of relief with. We can let down our hair. We can let down our guard. We can be selfish. We can crack jokes. We can be ourselves and relax. As women, we experience a unique emotional connection with our female friends that is very different from the intimacy and emotional connection we feel with our significant others. They can tell us jokes. They can listen to our stories. We need our girlfriends. The need for these social connections does not minimize our other relationships by any measure - but we need all of these relationships for different reasons. I guess what I'm trying to say is while men may never understand what we want, and for that same matter we may never figure out what we want, thank goodness for the people we have in our lives who love us for who we are and make our lives so much better for the living.