So Lucky

The last few months have been a whirlwind for me. Life has been so incredibly great over the past few months and it only looks to get better. Peter has made me the happiest person on earth, and I am so happy he has come into my life. Jason Mraz has this new song out that is called Lucky. I love it, because that is exactly how I feel. LUCKY!

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

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So true

Everyone concentrates on the problems we're having in this country lately: illegal immigration, hurricane recovery, alligators attacking people in Florida. Not me, I concentrate on solutions for the problems. It's a win-win situation.
+ Dig a moat the length of the Mexican border.
+ Send the dirt to New Orleans to raise the level of the levees.
+ Put the Florida alligators in the moat along the Mexican border.

Any other problems you would like for me to solve today?
Yes! Think about this one:
1. Cows
2. The Constitution
3. The Ten Commandments


C O W S
Is it just me, or does anyone else find it amazing that during the mad cow epidemic our government could track a single cow, born in Canada almost three years ago, right to the stall where she slept in the state of Washington? And, they tracked her calves to their stalls. But they are unable to locate 11 million illegal aliens wandering around our country. Maybe we should give each of them a cow.

T H E C O N S T I T U T I O N
They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq . Why don't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, it has worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it anymore.

T H E 1 0 C O M M A N D M E N T S
The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments posted in a courthouse is this: You cannot post 'Thou Shalt Not Steal,' 'Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery,' and 'Thou Shall Not Lie' in a building full of lawyers, judges and politicians...It creates a hostile work environment.

Dead and Gone

That is the best way to describe my lawn. The 100 plus temps have been so bad it is just sucking the life out of my lawn. My dogs were home for 13 hours today because I went to work and then over to Peters house. I have a dog door so they can go out, but they wont eat or anything while Im gone. So when I got home i started watering my ever so dead lawn cause daisy loves to chase the water. She inhaled a few gallons chasing the hose but she had a good time!

Isn't the lawn awful? lol

Even the leaves on my new tree are all fried

She soaked me!

Economy

The economy is so bad - -

1. I got a pre-declined credit card in the mail.

2. CEO's are now playing miniature golf.

3. Hot wheels and Matchbox cars are now trading higher than GM cars.

4. McDonalds is selling the 1/4 - ouncer.

5. People in Beverly Hills fired their nannies and learned their
children's names.

6. The most highly-paid job is now jury duty.

7.. People in Africa are donating money to Americans.

8. Motel Six won't leave the light on.

9. The Mafia is laying off judges.

10. When the bank returns your check marked "insufficient funds" you
have to call and ask if they meant you or them.

A journey to happiness

I often look through my journal from when I attended Ricks college. I wrote in my journal every day when I was there about how I wanted to fall in love and get married. I took an eternal marriage class, and I took a family prep class so it was easily on my mind. But looking back at it now, I was no where near ready for marriage then. I have been through so much who has gotten me to where I am. I was such a different person when it comes to relationships. But all of my past relationships have gotten me to where I am now. A person who is capable of love, something I wasn't even a few short years ago. Anyone who knew me, knew I hated pet names, I hated holding hands, I hated cuddling I hated anything a person who wants to be in love should like. It took time for me. Past relationships to open my heart and teach me things, so that when the right one came along I would be ready.
Without all this previous preparation I wouldn't be where I am today. With the man of my dreams who makes me happier than I have ever been. He sent me an email yesterday that was the sweetest thing ever. He said " I love to see you smile as much as I like making you smile and that is all I ever want to do. I know that life is never simple or that a relationship is not all smiles, but when I am with you that is how I want to make it. You compliment me in ways that I can't even describe like a glove to a hand or a warm blanket in wintertime....it just feel right. I want to be apart of your life, I want a family with you and I want to do anything I can that would make that happen. All I want is for you to be happy and I am willing to try and do everything within my power to fill your life with the joy and happiness you deserve. You mean the world to me you make me very happy I just wanted you to know that."
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, I am so glad that I found him.

Flaws and All

Who is more critical of us than ourselves?

Nobody.

We all have flaws.

Some of us may have a birthmark in an obvious place. (I know I did, I had it removed lol) Some of us may tend to be too needy. Some of us may nag or become too unkind when the pressure of our daily lives starts to close in on us.

Some of us may have habits that annoy some and are cute to others.

Some of us may be overweight. Some of us may be too short. Some may be too flat chested. Some of us may have body parts that don't quite look right.

We all have flaws; be it physical or in our personalities. Nobody is perfect. We are human.

I am not a girl who like cliches.

One cliche that bothers me is Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder. I get it. I get the point of this saying.

But it still bothers me.

The most insecure people I have ever met are the most attractive people. Why is that? If they are already seen as beautiful by most, then why are they the ones constantly seeking positive reinforcement?

It's because beauty is in the eye of the beholder. But for true beauty to exist, the eye of the beholder must be our own eyes.

In other words, if we don't find ourselves attractive, if we aren't comfortable with who we are, if we don't love ourselves; nobody else will or if they do, it won't be for long.

I sit here late at night with my thoughts and ask myself questions. Questions like... why am I 29 and not married. Or why have my past relationships not worked out?

For years, I wrestled with these thoughts.

The answer does not deserve as much reflection as I give it.

The answer is simple.

Accept myself.

I am flawed.

Whoever decides to love me is flawed.

Work on those flaws but don't let those flaws dictate my actions and words.

Don't try to change someone else.

And finally, be kind to myself.

Who is more critical of ourselves more than us?

Nobody.

And that is a shame.

Beyonce has this song out Called Flaws and All. Its so beautiful, I love it.

Flaws and All

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you- Beyonce, Flaws and All

That is what I think of when I think of Peter. He loves me flaws and all. The last guy I tried to date, was a decent guy. But he told me that I had all the qualities of a person he would like to marry however he only had dated petite girls and he thought he would have a problem with me being the way i am. He make me question myself, but above all I know this is who I was. And no matter what if I changed it would have to be for myself, if i changed for him I would only hold it against him later. Ultimately I knew that I would never be what he wanted, and being what he wanted would never make me happy.

Then I met Peter. Never once have I ever had to try and be something that I am not with him. I don't have to try and act smarter than I am (cause he knows I saw some extremely dumb things, A LOT!) I don't have a dress a certain way or say or do a certain thing. Peter loves me just the way I am, and he doesn't hesitate to let me know this each and every single day. I don't know why he loves me, and I may never understand, but he loves me flaws and all.


Beyonce - Flaws And All Live (Official Music Video) - Funny videos are here

Im totally slacking but life is good

I just haven't had much motivation to blog lately. I don't have much to blog about. Things have been going really well in my life lately. Work is starting to get much better. We hired a new nurse who started this past Monday so im in the process of showing her a few ropes and then she will take over on the CBA program (the one for the elderly) and I will get the CLASS program which is mostly kids. I have a lot of work to do in the program, but now I can devote all my time and energy towards getting that done.
Things with Peter are going amazing! He is the most incredible guy, and I count myself lucky every day that he found his way into my life. I am absolutely in love with him, and enjoy every minute we get to spend together. He is so fun and Witty and he ALWAYS makes me laugh. I can act like a complete idiot (and trust me I do this often) and he still makes me feel like the smartest person in the room. I got to meet his sister Laura last weekend. Its his only sibling, she is 29 like me, and is married and lives in Austin. She was great to meet, even though she didn't know much about me, she welcomed me with a hug the second she met me. She had lots of questions about who I am and what i do, how I met Peter, etc etc. She said it was all the things a sister should know.
So things are amazing. I am extremely happy. My boss commented that I have been smiling so much more at work. And she realizes how much less stressed I am right now. Funny side note, the new nurse Amy and I realized today that Peters dad used to be her boss at Children's ICU a little over 2 years ago. What a small world! We made that connection when she just so happened to ask what Peters last name was today on our way home from a visit. Mohat is not really a common last name.