Laughing with Ellen

I have written a few blogs about things that I enjoy, things that make me who I am, things that make me happy. So to continue with that tradition I decided to write about another thing that makes me happy. This time it would have to be the person that just has the funniest personality ever and that is Ellen Degeneres. I haven't been a long time follower of Ellen, I frankly just never was home or awake when she is on air, and it was just something I never thought of. But I have my sister Lauralee to thank for showing me what a funny comedian she is. Her show has got to just be the funniest thing ever! And I am so glad that her new season has started this weeks, and also that I have DVR to be able to record them all so that the laughs never stop. She also has blogs that she writes on her website every now and then, and there are some that literally leave me in tears.



SLEEP BLOGGING

I have been waking up in the middle of the night lately...and it's always at 3 o'clock in the morning. You can set a clock to it. If anyone needs a wake up call at 3AM, I am happy to do it. In fact, its me who keeps calling Hillary Clinton in all those commercials. I have no trouble falling asleep. Its just once I wake up, I can't get back to sleep. Then I hear sprinklers somewhere. "Are those my sprinklers? Is that in the front yard? Do they go on in the backyard at the same time? That's a lot of water. How do sprinklers work? I'm sort of thirsty. If I go into the kitchen, I'll be up for hours. No. I 'm just gunna go back to sleep. I'm lying in bed, I'm tired; it's a perfect recipe for sleep. Here I go..." Then I hear that bird! That one relentless bird. He has a whole routine. It's a musical number, really. It's like Mariah Carey's in a tree outside my bedroom window. The sun isn't up yet, why is that bird? I realize the early bird gets the worm, but he's just singing. He's not even looking for a worm. If he were, his singing would scare them away. Maybe he has insomnia too. But why does he have to take us all with him? I'm not calling everyone I know just cause I can't sleep. "Hi, whatcha doin'? Sleeping? Lucky you." Are the other birds as aggrivated as I am? A little later in the night, I hear another bird start singing along. At least it sounds like he's singing along...he's probably saying...he's probably saying, "Shut up!"



This was on Tuesdays show I thought it was pretty funny, Ellen talking to Misty May-Treanor and Kerri Walsh two time olympic gold metalist in beach volleyball.

All part of my job...

Last night when I was at work I decided to check up on a beautiful little girl that I had the opportunity to take care of sometime back at the beginning of the year in like March or so. It was the saddest case, her and her twin sister had what is known as Niemann Pick Type C syndrome. I found out that both of the girls have passed on, one in May and the Other in July. They would have been 2 this month on the 7th. All my patients have an effect on me in some way or another, some more than others. This is a patient that really found a special place in my heart in a hurry.
"Niemann-Pick Type C (NPC) is very different than Type A or B. Niemann Pick Type C patients are not able to metabolize cholesterol and other lipids properly within the cell. Niemann-Pick Type C disease is very rare and there are about 500 cases diagnosed worldwide. It is believed, however, that the number of people affected by NPC could be higher, but diagnostic difficulties do not allow an accurate assessment of the occurrence rate. NPC has been initially diagnosed as a learning disability, mild retardation, "clumsiness," and delayed development of fine motor skills. It is not uncommon for a family to spend several years seeking a diagnosis before NPC is identified. NPC is always fatal. The vast majority of children die before age 20 (and many die before the age of 10). Late onset of symptoms can lead to longer life spans but it is extremely rare for any person with Niemann Pick Type C to reach age 40."
It was the saddest thing to see this most adorable little girl who was 18 months old and only the size of maybe an 8 month old. I never got to meet her twin sister but she has the most amazing parents who really had a good handle on the fact that they were care takers for these two little girls who didn't have a long life ahead of them. I was so impressed with how well they were dealing with this for such a short time and how this surprised pregnancy had turned out to be way more than they had bargained for. On their website there was a blurb that their mom had written about how she was able to deal with this: " A lot of people ask me how I keep going – how I’m not totally falling apart. I feel like God is giving me the strength to do this – he chose me and my husband to be the girls’ parents because he knew we would take the best care of them no matter what. So that’s what we do, and we take it one day at a time. I am so thankful for my children, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. I just wish there were more I could do for them – but that’s why we will keep fighting for a cure, and we won’t stop until we find one. "

www.angeltwins.org

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same"

Only in Texas

You might be from Texas...

1. If you find 60 degrees "a little chilly," you may live in Texas
2. If the speed limit on the highway is 55 mph -- you're going 80 and everybody is passing you, you may live in Texas
3. If "Vacation" means going anywhere south of Dallas for the weekend, you may live in Texas
4. If you measure distance in hours, you may live in Texas
5. If you've had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed a wrong number, you may live in Texas
   
6. If someone in a Lowe's store offers you assistance and they don't work there, you may live in Texas
7. If a tornado warning siren is your signal to go out in the yard and look for a funnel
8. If You've ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day
9. If you know that the true value of a parking space is not determined by the distance to the door, but by the availability of shade
10. If a bad traffic jam involves two cars staring each other down at a four-way stop, each determined to be the most polite and let the other go first
11. If you know everything goes better with Ranch dressing or hot sauce
12. If you can say 110 degrees without fainting
13. If you no longer associate bridges with water
14. If you discover in July that it only takes two fingers to drive your car
15. If you actually burn your hand opening the car door
16. If you discover a seat belt makes a really good branding iron
17. If you have ever been trick or treating when its been 90 degrees outside
18. Or if you have ever hung Christmas lights when it is 80 degrees outside
19. If a carbonated beverage is called a "Coke" no matter what the brand.
    
    
    Texas Vs. California
    
    
    
    Somebody from California apparently wrote the top part, but somebody from Texas came back and put them on their asses at the bottom.
    
    CALIFORNIA:
    
    - I can wear sandals all year long
    
    - I go to the Beach - not "down to the shore"
    
    -Our chicks are WAYYYY hotter than yours. Well...Miami can hang.
    
    - I say "like" and "for sure" and "right on" and "dude" and "totally" and "peace out" and "chill" and "tight" and "bro" and I say them often
    
    - I know what real cheese & avocados taste like
    
    -Everyone smokes weed and its no big deal
    
    -We'll roll up 40 deep when something goes down.
    
    -I live next door to Mexicans, but we call them American's!
    
    -All the porn you watch is made here, cause we're better and thats how it is
    
    - I don't get snowdays off because theres only snow in Mammoth, Tahoe, Shasta, and Big Bear
    
    - I know 65 mph really means 100
    
    - When someone cuts me off, they get the horn and the finger and high speed chase cuz we dont fuck around on the road
    
    - The drinking age is 21 but everyone starts at 14 (legally 18 if you live close enough to the border)
    
    - My governor can kick your governors ass
    
    - I can go out at midnight
    
    -You judge people based on what area code they live in, and when asked where you're from, you give your area code
    
    - I might get looked at funny by locals when I'm on vacation in their state, but when they find out I'm from California I turn into a Greek GOD
    
    - We don't stop at stop signs... we do a "california roll"
    No cop no stop baby!
    
    - I can get fresh and REAL Mexican food 24 hours a day
    
    - All the TV shows you "other" states watch get filmed here
    
    - We're the Golden State. Not the Cheese State. Not the Garden State.....GOLDEN!!!
    
    - We have In-N-Out (Arizona and Vegas are lucky we share that with them)
    
    - I have the most representation in the House of Representatives, which means MY opinion means more than yours, which means I'm better than you [geez.... hahaha]
    
    - The best athletes come from here
    
    
    ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
    
    TEXAS:
    
    Ahem... So.. Um.. yeah... I read this, and thought I would reply...
    
    
    Hey... California listen up... Texas is where its at!
    
    - I too can wear sandals all year long... plus I can put on boots to stomp your toes and I won't even stick out.
    
    - You may be able to go to the "beach" instead of the "shore"... but can you go to the drive thru "Beer Barn?" What now surfer boy?
    
    - You're chicks aren't way hotter than ours... they are almost equal... and thats only due to silicone, saline, botox, lasers and hair dye... We have the real ones and they can beat yours up.
    
    - We're taught to say "Yes Sir" and "Yes Ma'am" and respect our elders because of it. We also say "Howdy" and "fixin" and "Yall" and we're pretty much recognized right away anywhere in the world :) We're famous.
    
    - You may know what real cheese and avocados taste like... but I know what 100% Grade A Angus Beef tastes like. Who wants avocados and cheese when you can have steak and potatoes?
    
    - Haha... who do you think grows the weed and sells it to you?
    
    - Why roll 40 deep when something goes down if 5 corn fed country boys can get the job done...
    
    - I live next door to Americans, but we call them Mexicans.
    
    - About your Porn.... 3 words... "Debbie Does Dallas"... You can brag about it now, but we started it
    
    - Why would you brag about not getting snow days off?
    
    - We're smart enought to know 65mph means 65, but our speed limit is 70.
    
    - - When someone cuts me off, they get run over by my big ass truck, then I give them the finger and tell them to go back to California.
    
    - The drinking age is 21, but if you aren't chasin the beer by 1 yr old... you're behind.
    
    - Yeah, Well my governor became the President of the United States... yours isn't even eligible.
    
    - You can go out at midnight? Thats nice, I haven't even come home by then.
    
    - Ok... you said,"You judge people based on what area code they live in, and when asked where you're from, you give your area code" We don't judge and when we're asked where we're from, we say,"TEXAS," and that's all that needs to be said.
    
    - Yeah, you'll definitely get looked at funny when you come to visit but we have another name for you pretty boys, and its not Greek, its French.
    
    - Of course you don't stop at stop signs... none of you can drive.
    
    - You can pick up Real mexican food 24 hours a day huh... well I can swing by home depot and pick up 24 Real mexicans anytime of day. Can you say catering?
    
    - All the tv shows get filmed there... but where does your favorite poker game from? Texas Hold'em anyone?
    
    - You can keep your golden state... We're the Lone Star State...the one and only!!
    
    - Do I have to remind you about the drive thru Beer Barn again? Does In-N-Out serve alcohol? (Oh and did I mention Dr. Pepper was created in Texas?)
    
    - You guys have the best athletes huh?... Eight words... Lance Armstrong and The University of Texas at Austin
    
    Though I could mention MICHAEL JOHNSON - Olympic Sprinter, World record holder in 200m and 400m, 5 Olympic Gold metals, 9 time World Champion (born Dallas, Tx)
    
    Oh and remind me again who won the Rose Bowl between USC and Texas????? I believe it was the LONGHORNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    
    - Football is a religion, not a sport
    
    - 90% of football "movies" you guys are making are about Texas Football.
    
    -Varsity Blues, filmed in Georgetown, Tx - Friday Night Lights, filmed in Odessa, Tx - Necessary Roughness, filmed in San Marcos Texas
    
    - Texas is the only state that can still separate to become its own country. The only way California's gonna accomplish that is if another earthquake comes along and you guys sink into the ocean. Can you say Atlantis.... hahaha
    
    And as the Great Sam Houston once said "Texas could survive without the United States, but the United States could not survive without Texas."
    
    
    

Don't worry, be happy

My coworker has told me that I need to work on "cheering up" my blogs because she is tired of my being unhappy and my blogs are depressing. LOL That is not my intention, I am not intending to depress anyone reading, I write to get my feelings down so that I can move on. And that is exactly what I am trying to do. I am wanting to make the best of the situation I have found myself in. So what if all the dreams I have had for myself have not seen realization. They will happen! Just not right now. So now I have to heal and move on. I have been hurt, I have found myself in a situation I have worked so hard to avoid. But I am a good person, and I have a lot to offer to the world. And I will get better don't worry.

Broken

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable

When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

[verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

[chorus]

[bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether

[chorus] x2
... made me unbeautiful

I know I have it before, that music speaks to me. It speaks emotions that I may not or will not convey. I keep going though the lyrics of this song as I sit here thinking. I wonder to myself where I went wrong, what I did to deserve feeling like this, but I really don't think that "I" did anything, or truly deserve this. So why? When you date someone, someone that you thought you were in love with, that told you they were in love with you and it ends, you would hope for the "sake of the relationship" that it would take at least a few months for the other person to move on. Maybe Im wrong in this, I guess its just what I thought would happen, but I made the mistake of looking on Brian's myspace page tonight. I thought it odd that his comments were hidden, but my sister Amy has taught me how to view hidden comments and I found this comment from a girl saying something like how much she missed him and how she wished he was there cuddling with her right now. So curious I went to her page, everything was hidden on her page as well, but I could again read the comments of him telling her how much he missed her. Then the emotions hit...the girl is 18 as of 10 days ago, Brian will be 29 in January. First thought is nasty! But quickly followed by anger, that is matched with sorrow. I can't explain whats happening to me, its like im right or im wrong and everything is upside down. Everything is spinning around and its freaking me out. I literally felt my stomach and heart hit the floor. Im sick, and im at work, and there is nothing I can do about it. I tried to distract myself, I went to check on my patients, take vital signs, give medications, that took up 20 minutes of my time! Now I have a little over 3 hours left. How could he do this, how can he move on in less than a months time? Apparently im just that easy to get over. I feel as though the band aid has been ripped off. Only this time, it took more skin with it, it hurts and it hurts bad. I can't help but feel angry, bordering on hatred. I don't really hate him but I hate that he made me hurt this bad. They say if you love something let it go, but they never say what to do if it never comes back to you.

Drowning

Ever feel like in the "boat of life" you are taking on more water than you seem to be able to get rid of?


That you are drowning and are reaching out for help for something to keep you afloat but the things that you grab on to, the things you take hold of to bring you back, to give you some sense of stability are not really floatation devices or anything that will give you aid. In fact they are more like weights, things meant to drag you down even further. There are days where I feel like I'm in spiraling funnel. Like I want to grab onto the sides to stop myself from slipping even further but there are no holding devices, nothing to help me stop. There are days where I feel fine, where I'm "happy" and content but those days are quickly followed by bad ones, and the bad ones seem to out number the good these days. Maybe its just emotions talking, I guess its a bad time of the month, but I went from feeling so happy, a few months ago, like I had everything going for me. And now I feel like life has given me one hell of kick in the pants and I'm sprawled out on the ground. Now I want to get up, but every time I try someone steps on me. It really isn't this bad, I'm drowning in a 3 foot pool. I'm in the shallow end and all I have to do is stand up and I will be ok, but its just not happening.

I love my dogs

There are few things in life that are guaranteed to make you happy. Everyone has their own idea of what that may be in their lives, but for me it can always be my dogs. Not everyone is a dog person, some people don't mind them, but don't exactly care for them (that would be my mom) and then there are people who just truly despise dogs and would be perfectly content never having them in their lives. (that would be my aunt Julie) Then there are the people like me that are dog lovers! While I would admit there are different extremes of dog lovers. I wouldn't classify myself as on the extreme end, but there is something about having a dog that really makes me life complete. They are the ultimate companion and they always love you no matter what. When I am sad or in pain, my dogs know it. Especially Cooper, he is really good at being right by my side, he always can sense when something is wrong, and he will just make sure he is really close.

He loves to give kisses

I guess not everyone loves dogs, and doesn't mind sleeping with them, and cleaning up their fur, and getting kisses and such, but there is nothing I love more.

You know your a dog lover if...

You can't see out the passenger side of your window because of all the drool marks and nose prints
You refer to yourselves as Mommy
Your dog sleeps with you.

• Your dog eats cat poop, but you still let her kiss you (but not immediately afterward, of course).
• You like people who like your dog. You despise people who don't.
• You talk about your dog the way other people talk about their kid.
• You put an extra blanket on the bed so your dog can be comfortable.
• You'd rather stay home on Saturday night and cuddle your dog than go to the movies with your sweetie. (ok that may be a bit much!)
• You don't think it's the least bit strange to stand in the back yard chirping "Daisy, pee!" over and over again, while Daisy tends to play and forget what she's out there for (but what your neighbors think of your behavior is yet another story).
• You match your furniture/carpet/clothes to your dog.
• You never completely finish a piece of steak or chicken (so your dog gets a taste, too).
• You make popcorn just to play catch with your dog.
• You keep eating even after finding a dog hair in your pasta

I think she was laughing at me

Dancing